Inspiration holds sway on much of our imagination and creativity, and what possibilities come from it, both in reality and fantasy, as well as the mixture of it and what may come of it. At mass today, the local priest spoke on it from the aspect of 'breath'. Inspiration comes from the Latin for 'breath' and can mean essentially the 'pouring in of breath' upon someone. The importance of this is how 'breath' has meaning towards 'life'. That is, while a person has breath, they have life in them. Yet inspiration, and spirit itself has a metaphysical concept as well. Life in that spirit goes beyond just the physical breath. Creativity through inspiration is often the compounding, or otherwise 'toying' with ideas that have been passed on in some way and given a new 'vision' or perception.
In like way, the concept that Simmons in the Ilium is portraying through Odysseus's concept of knowing one's father in order to know one's self is much in line with knowing one's lineage of inspiration. Even in Christ's knowing his Father, it is knowing who guides him, and knowing Him who guides Christ is to know the Father, the Creator. Trying to find the path of inspiration is a challenging one for all. But, it is a worthy path to travel.
So why would I say that I am not a leader of men? Well, in some ways, it's true as to the lyrics of the song, that I prefer to follow. If I were to be anything of a 'leader' it would be more an attempt to guide, than to try and push people to do something. I don't want to be demanding to anyone. Nor would I want people to demand my attention. But I do have my expectations of people. Unrealistic? I'm sure some of them may be. And sometimes those expectations are compromised. Other times, I can't compromise. I'm sorry. I'm human, despite my characters being something of slightly different nature. They're still humanoid, though. And there's only so far I wish to explore with them. There's places I can't go, and things I can't do. Yet, despite my failings to be more malleable, I hope I can still find people that are interested in trying to travel through similar sorts of things I am interested in exploring as well. Whether I follow them, or they follow me depends. But, I am retiring from trying to herd cats. If people wish to follow (or not), then so be it.
But for now, I'm just going to relearn to breath.